Words are big. They’re the stuff of beginnings. They fall
firmly into the realm of stuff God does -
parting waters, making the sun stand still, burning bushes, casting words
across the universe. Even before nothing
formed into something, God had voice
and God was speaking.
I wonder if God feels the acid in the belly after the words
are out there. I wonder if the Godhead ever reflects, Wow, We know so many different kinds of people, and they all know
different parts of Us. There are a lot of people We really care about who
actually have no idea who We even are. What We really want to say is going to seriously
affect the way they think about Us, and they might not even get it. Let Us
choose Our words very, very carefully. Nobody writes a story like God does,
yet even God only got six chapters in before being flooded with a desire to
bury the whole sorry thing under a 40 day avalanche of rain.
I feel my own words in my belly, in the back of my throat,
behind my knees. I shape them carefully, I wrestle with them and yet they still
come out wrong. They burn my lips and I vomit them onto strangers.
Writing is riskier than a tattoo. When you tell people you
want to write, they should caution you. They should say, “Imagine you
at 90. Are you going to be able to live with those words you write 50 years
from now when your mind is shrivelled? When some stranger is giving you a bath
in a care home, how will you feel about the written word then?” If you’re going to
write something down, you have to be sure that it’s what you really want to say,
that you could say it out loud to your husband or your mother or a stranger and
it would still be true, and that you will still be glad you wrote it how you
did even if it disappoints – even if it twists and sags and morphs over time.
5 comments:
I will be here to sag, morph and twist with you. Hugs and love.
Thank you. Sagging is so much more fun with company. <3
Excited to keep reading your wonderful words. Beautifully written my friend.
Thanks for exercising the faith and taking the risks of going public in sharing your thoughts, questions, insights and faith. It seems to me that God has gifted you for this and I pray His blessings on you and your efforts as you write, as you use your gift as His servant and for His glory.
Thank you so much, Randy. Thank you for taking the time to say that - I appreciate it very much. And thank you so very much for your prayer.
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