For a dozen reasons, not least of which was that I was a girl, not least of which was that I was
afraid of the power of my voice, of
my unbridled tongue, of my sass, of my too-big-for-your-britches,
of my who do you think you are, not
least of which was that I acquired early a taste for sin, I set that dream aside. I put away childish things.
I thought about becoming a lawyer.
It can take a long time to switch that question, What do you want to be? for What is the name of that plant growing
within you? It can take a long time to wrap your arms around yourself, to
say yes to the God thing seeded into
you, to say yes to the knotting and
the twining, and to the droughts that make the roots dig down deep for water.
It can take a lot of years to learn that the Pruner’s shears are for you – for you, so that you might grow tall and straight and full, so that you
don’t have to even think how to
withstand fire and flood and famine.
And it can happen in one day – in one blaze of razing fire –
that all the brambles and bird’s nests and the things others have built are removed to reveal what was there all
along growing tender, low to the ground, deeply rooted in rich, blackened soil,
already bearing fruit.
My novel is never going to be born – I am not going to live
to be one hundred.
But I am not a novelist
– I never, ever was. I am a preacher.
I have begun a new book. It is smaller, it is less
impressive, it might fall the way of foolish
things – but it is the berry born of the vine from the seed that was
planted in me, stewarded to me by the hand of a loving God Who trusts me, Who
believes in me, Who has invested deeply into me, Who has infinite time and a
knack for knitting.
All things work together for good for those who love Him and
are called to His purposes.
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Der Herr segne dich, und behuete dich; der Herr lasse sein Angesicht leuchten ueber dir, und sei dir gnädig; der Herr hebe sein Angesicht ueber dich, und gebe dir Frieden. . . :)
The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.
Numbers 6:24-26. :)
Thank you. :)
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